im going to skip some of the day because they kinda suck…
day 10- what music do i listen to when im sad mad or happy: i listen to everything (plus i dont get sad often and music doesnt make me sad soooo haha)
day 12- how i found our about tumblr and what made me get one: KERSTIE!
day 13- write a letter to the last person to hurt you: dear douche, FUCK YOU. for now. or… a while. -maya.
Day 15- Put your ipod on shuffle: first 10 songs that play…
Senorita- Justin T.
Tik tok-Ke$ha haha
Vegas Skies- The Cab
Rolling in the Deep- Adele<3
Did it On’em- Nicki Minaj
Joyride- Jump5 keke
Slow Motion- Juvenile hahaha emily made a cd for me in ‘04 and i put it on my mac and this song was on it HAHA
My Girls- Animal Collective
You make me live- Straight No Chaser (thanks to kat!)
I’m Still Breathing- Katy Perry!
day 19- my nicknames!
DOODl, Mayaboo, Ma-crew, Biff, Biffley biffle biff, mayalove, bones, redears, b-ville, mamma mia, caramel frap, FRAP!, bootsie, m-crew, MC, bbbfxinfinity, and two im not so proud of footface and partywhore complements of andy and chels hahaha but i have so many nicknames its not even funny!
day 20- someone i see myself with in the future/marrying: IM 15 plus anytime i like a guy something goes wrong, i stop liking him, or he stops liking me so basically im just going with the flow of things when it comes with guys.
day 22- what make me different from other people: im really caring and i love helping my friends with their problems. i keep secrets well and im always here for anyone who needs me.(:
day 23- Something a crave a lot- FOOD AND STARBUCKS
day 26- what i think of my friends- i think my TRUE friends are hilarious, amazing, and they help me with everything i dont know what id do without them!
i love it when people complement me… i dont want to sound conceded or anything but its the truth i do! it makes me feel special and i looove feeling special i mean who doesnt? but i hate it when a guy complements you and then later on when you say something nice about them they completely ignore it and act like they dont want anything to do with you or like you dont exist. i feel like im overreacting whatever hahaha WHM! if only lia had a tumblr… haha
I really dont know why but i feel like my old friends dont appreciate me as much as they used to or they dont like me as much. Over the summer we always hung out we never left each other out everyone was always invited to things, i was happy! Now i barely see any of them its weird because i only see them at school. Yeah i have tons of new amazing friends i hang out with besides them but i miss my old friends and i feel left out whenever im with them. Lately i feel like everything is getting worse if that makes any sense. mom and i fight all the time, the person i liked is acting like a douche(at least kat and i think so), and my best friend is GONE! When im not hanging out with my best friends i feel sad which is weird because im ALWAYS happy, laughing, or trying to make someone else happy. you never find me in a bad mood its kinda weird because i dont feel as happy as usual and i dont know why. BUTTT im glad i have my friends because they definitely make me forget the bad things! <333
Tired of caring. Of being forgotten. Tired of having things to cry about, and people who just don’t care. Tired of never being good enough. Tired of all the “I’m just not feeling it anymore”s and the “I just wanna be single”s. I just want to be someones all. Their everything. Just once. So I can feel like I’m where i’m supposed to be. I can’t do this anymore. I don’t want to live this life.